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there is also this thought that i just assume everyone on the internet are handsome boys and girls...
but this idea backfired me a few times before

that's expectation vs reality
but generally people are nice

though when you have more people join in, there are more gossip.
which i don't like. i was at the center of the gossip one time coz i liked a girl.
it makes me mad that people don't think she'll fall for me.
it makes me even angrier that she didn't fall for me.
i was hoping that she can against all odds and people's presumption and fall for me.
i guess story like that only exists in fairy tale.

love dies. but i enjoyed our time though

i was trying my best not to be pushy and being an annoying prick

i guess at the end, i still remind respectful

she told me that, she wants to be friends with me.

i could be a good friend i guess.
but i can't be a good friend with someone i've had crush.
so i told her that it's either girlfriend or no contact ever again.
so naturally she chose the first option

i don't hold any grudge against her
i can't make someone like me

but rejection never feels good

so i told myself don't fall for anyone else again

because i'm just going to end up wounded

i've not fall not anyone else since then.
at least these days i don't have to worry about the opinion of another person.
i don't have to wait for someone's messages.
i don't have to put out any effort for anyone.......

let me tell you,
i have kind of given up by now.

but i still want to remind simple and naive.
remind childish and passionate

i don't like the way a lot of grown-ups see this world.
calculating others' action

so i decided to remind silly and naive
it's happier this way

what good is the so called 'mature' by chinese anyways

like, have to hold a serious face at all time
every action is concerned by the so called etiquette

the worst of all, caring about what others think about trivial stuff
like, you should be married by certain age
you should have a banquet for a total of 30 tables
like, giving diamond rings to show your love

i simply couldn't care less

but i must admit that,
i don't have a lot of that kind of people around me
i intentionally distance myself from them

how i'm being judgy again

please don't

all right here we are