there is always the looming pressure of being fired
i don't wanna take it anymore
i miss someone again, someone i can rely on.
i don't have a concrete person yet.
but i reckon, i still have to be optimistic right.
life is hard. oh my gosh.
the suicide of that 27 years old girl in uk resonates with me a lot
i am about the same age
i too am worry about the security of my job
i too am a new immigrant who don't think i fit here
i fully wfh too, and that means limited social interaction
even though i maintain good relationship with my family, i don't think i can confess to them my struggles here.
there are financial pressure too, though to a lesser degree.
needless to say, i miss hk a lot.
even though i have met quite a lot different people here, nothing has flourished. i listened their stories and how they ended up here. it's fun, it's interesting. but i also know that we likely won't meet again. there is still that void that i cannot fill.
be humble be humble be humble
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i have so many stories to tell but i have no one to tell
canada, you are not treating me very well right now
why do people have to struggle with money and relationships.
why do we have to worry so much about our job.
worry about having a shelter and food.
i wish she's here with me so that i have a tree hole
but likely she's going to stay silent and give me black face
which is not ideal
i want to work for a company that actually believe in what they are doing
than i still have to go to work tomorrow
a job that i don't know what i'm doing
that i don't like
god, i know you're with me every step of my life.
tonight, i pray for your helping me once again.
i wanna get out of this hellish cycle.
sometimes when i looked back,
i realize the challenges that i overcame, they were there for a reason.
but i'm struggling right now
i cannot see the end of the tunnel.
please help me
i will continue to love and to spread kindness
with the little strength that i have right now
i don't think i have ever hold malicious intention for others
but i don't always express myself well
sometimes i caused pains to others too
is this also part of the plan to help me find that person that i will love
i haven't been growing for the past few years.
why did her bring me to K11 mall to have a pancake with her
bread and cake are not my favorite food
why would she want to share drinks with me
i get drunk easily and i don't like alcohol
why did she hate me so much
it is because i fall for her and she wants to remain friends
perhaps, deep inside i know that we don't fit
but i wanna give it a go anyways
it was a mistake that i don't regret
i just wish that i don't have to be rejected