testing 加密

so exhausted

i often find life to be unfair

i don't understand
why something born rich
why something born poor
why some people have a loving family
why some people have a broken family
why someone live live a long and fulfilling life
yet someone die the moment they come to this world
i don't understand
why so many sufferings in the world
why do we have to go through all this
i don't understand

please judge me no more

今午（12日）12時許，一名男子報案，指其年約26歲的兒子在西半山堅道嘉景臺一單位內自縊，於是報警。警員及救護到場，惟事主昏入昏迷，由救護車送往至律敦治醫院搶救，其後證實死亡，事故原因仍待調查。據了解，死者與家人同住於同址，是家中子女排行第二，據知事主從事IT工作，疑因工作不開心而輕生，現場未有檢獲遺書。

just like this, a life is taken away.
26 years of experience, leading up to this.
to the point of ultimate desperation
can you imagine
what kind of things he had to go through
that he decided to end everything
i don't understand
疑因工作不開心而輕生 is a simple way to put it
i'm so sorry

今日好凍

I got vertigo today
very dizzy
why am I like this

想搵一個伴侶：
- 香港人
- 年齡介乎20-30
- 對普世價值有追求
- 識講流利嘅廣東話同英文
- 大學畢業其實唔重要，如果平時會涉獵下唔同嘅中英文書籍
- 獨立自主，有自己嘅夢想與追求，有自己嘅專業
- 對呢個世界抱有關懷與希望

ironically, I seek what I'm lacking.

即使在人生最低潮嘅時候，which is probably now，我依然對人生抱有一絲的希望。這一絲的希望，令我在這個看似絕望無情不公平的人生強行求生。

wherever i go, here i'm

情像雨點 似斷難斷
愈是去想 更是凌亂
我已經不想跟你癡纏
我有我的尊嚴 不想再受損

有少少記掛中學嘅時光

我將最寶貴嘅青春拋棄

點解我可以六年中學都未同過一個女同學單獨出街

我都想試下puppy love pillow talk
沿途與他車廂中私奔般戀愛 再擠迫都不放開
祈求在路上沒任何的阻礙 令愉快旅程變悲哀

like the first time i set eyes upon you and you were indifferent

just kidding, that afternoon, i went to your seat and discussed about an arrangement, i saw a photo of two cute children with you on your desk. i jokingly asked you if they were your kids. because i liked you but i didn't know if you were single or not. they are your nephews, you told me. a sigh of relief. you were available. that was the very first of our interaction. the start of our journey.

i sent u lots of words, lots. but you liked them.
and you sent me lots of words too.
that was intense.

you did lots of things with me. lots of things that i enjoyed.
you listened to me. and you told me that i'm knowledgeable.
but i was just trying to impress you. surely i know a lot.
yet a lot more i don't know.