i don't know what am i doing.
i don't want to do it.
none of it makes sense.
i am so mentally exhausted.
last night i dreamed of having a better work environment.
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please god help me
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all morning i am gasping and i want to vomit
because this is the start of the week
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even during the weekend all i can think of is the stupid tasks that i've yet to finish
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it's the stupid small things adding up making the entire workflow so anti-human
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i feel like i'm locked in
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my pain doesn't start at 9am because the pressure never truly stop
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i need a way out, please
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i'm on the edge of collapsing
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i physically want to vomit when i look at my computer screen showing up all the tasks waiting for me
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but i procrastinate, i avoid looking at them, and they're piling up
the stress just keep building up
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please give me a call, tell me that i get the job
please
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i'm physically sick and mentally exhausted
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it's snowing outside
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when you are in a slum it's hard to get out because your energy are trapped
so looking for a new job is extremely tough when the currently job is exhausting you
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i just want to do absolutely nothing, nothing whatsoever
no more meetings, no more tasks
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another meeting today, that i do not want to be in
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i found myself yelling at the monitor for how stupid everything is i can hardly put into words.
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it's like performing magic and hoping everything just work out fine
i don't have a way to test it
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and i have to wait for days for the feedback
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and get the data that i want
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all while someone is pushing you to get something done
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what should be done in minutes are now taking days