testing 加密

今日好痛苦
希望收到offer
我唔想再返呢份工
完全無食慾冇動力

i don't know what am i doing.
i don't want to do it.
none of it makes sense.
i am so mentally exhausted.
last night i dreamed of having a better work environment.

please god help me

all morning i am gasping and i want to vomit
because this is the start of the week

even during the weekend all i can think of is the stupid tasks that i've yet to finish

it's the stupid small things adding up making the entire workflow so anti-human

i feel like i'm locked in

my pain doesn't start at 9am because the pressure never truly stop

i need a way out, please

i'm on the edge of collapsing

i physically want to vomit when i look at my computer screen showing up all the tasks waiting for me

but i procrastinate, i avoid looking at them, and they're piling up
the stress just keep building up

please give me a call, tell me that i get the job
please

i'm physically sick and mentally exhausted

it's snowing outside

when you are in a slum it's hard to get out because your energy are trapped
so looking for a new job is extremely tough when the currently job is exhausting you

i just want to do absolutely nothing, nothing whatsoever
no more meetings, no more tasks

another meeting today, that i do not want to be in

i found myself yelling at the monitor for how stupid everything is i can hardly put into words.

it's like performing magic and hoping everything just work out fine
i don't have a way to test it

and i have to wait for days for the feedback

and get the data that i want

all while someone is pushing you to get something done

what should be done in minutes are now taking days

and i'm exhausted