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time to take a hot bubble bath
will probably treat my coldness and sadness as well

點解無時間 又要走去識人
到底係想識黎做咩

i've been very fortunate my entire life. a bit of hardship won't hurt.
i like hanging out with my friends, i just don't quite have one here.

if someone is interested enough they can always make time

sometime people are really mean to others, like you are going through a rough period yourself why are you trying to make life harder for others.

係我唔吸引
應該放生自己

you can vent here, i won't disturb you again

there are 30 chapters in the book i just need to read 1 chapter a day sounds easy enough let's not make it any harder

let's ramp it up to 80

moving out of hong kong to canada to me wasn't much of a decision to make, it's a must do, business as usual, nothing special, nothing out of ordinary. i didn't do much planning, move to a new house and find a new job, how hard could it be, i thought to myself. until one day the reality sink in, all of sudden you found yourself in a place that you don't have connection to, doing a job you don't like, speaking a language that you are not most comfortable with, and your friends a pacific ocean away. you can't tell your family and friends the truth, because they want you to do well, they kind of look up on you, and you don' want to show them how much of a loser you are, so you avoid taking their calls, and their love for you turn into emotional baggage. you promise yourself, tomorrow is the day, i am going to wake up early, and call my family and friends, that tomorrow never come. combine that with the lack of financial security, and boom, everyday is like hell.

to break out of the hell will take quite a bit of time and energy. you start by forgiving yourself, what's gone is gone, what matter is present. you start by taking care of your food and sleep, and be less harsh on yourself. when you gain enough traction and energy, you can start to improve you body physically and mentally. and find a new job, all while the money work itself out. take one small step at a time, don't try to change dramatically, it won't work. sounds good, let me try again.

look at how happy they are

sometimes people get together not because they see something they like in the other person, but sometimes they are afraid of alone and in need of a companion. nothing wrong with that.
one of my friend met her gf through a dating app. he went through a break up not long ago and told me that he wanted someone to spend time with. he was considering whether he should be with this girl. it's been a few years since they are together now, and still going strong. i witnessed their ups and downs and in times crisis. sometimes he tells me that this relationship is more tiresome than his day job. my fd often urges me to seek a romantic relationship myself so that i don't have to be all lonely and sad. i never told him that i don't want to be in a relationship because i saw how much work he had to put into it, and the arguments, and the planning of stuff. his gf's last birthday he had to book a fancy hotel and restaurant and set up some heart-shaped balloons in the room and think hard about what to gift. i believe he called it 'ritualistic'. that's too much work to me for things that i don't understand. and the reason i don't understand it is because i don't use instagram or tiktok and people don't talk about these kind of stuff on lihkg.

maintaining a relationship is hard. and the prospect of it scares me. having gone through so many stories from lihkg posts and youtube videos and books i don't think i can take it. the unstable nature of it is a luxury that i cannot afford at the moment, which is indeed a bit sad.

i still think about the girl i loved every now and then. i think about how nervous i was when i asked her out for a movie through text message, then went to a 2-hours exam and got back an answer 'yes'. I still think about that movie night and we casually walked by the victoria harbour. i still think about the hike of many hours and we kept talking and talking incessantly and after got back to my home i jot down 2 a4 pages of stuff that we talked about so that i won't forget. i still think about all those night we didn't want to go back to our home and the only thing that separated us was the last subway of the day. those were the happiest time of my life. less often i think about this relationship didn't come to fruition because she didn't like me enough, or because i was poor. it took me a long time to deal with the salty and bitter feeling, and accept the truth as it is.

love, is the meaning of his life, my friend told me.

how many stars can i get for this writing in dse english exam?

0 because you don't talk about romantic love in any of the dse exam. secondary school students should not be engaged in romantic relationship and you should understand none of it because. but they expect you to understand the niner taste of life and tao and the meaning of life as a secondary school student.

話題盡了 也不緊要
吻我至淒冷的深宵
繁華鬧市 燈光普照
然而共你 已再沒破曉

紅眼睛 幽幽的看著這孤城
如同苦笑 擠出的高興
全城為我 花光狠勁
浮華盛世 作分手佈景

傳說中 癡心的眼淚會傾城
霓虹熄了 世界漸冷清
煙花會謝 笙歌會停
顯得這故事尾聲 更動聽~

此情可待成追憶，只是當時已惘然。

why so many emotions

1000個人有1000個人嘅煩惱，咁多個不解嘅結，呢個世界真係唔容易
人生真係好難好難

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what's the last major event that you know of

As a language model trained on data from the internet, my training data includes information up until 2021. So, some of the last major events that I have information about include the COVID-19 pandemic, the 2020 US Presidential election, the Black Lives Matter protests, and the increasing impact of climate change.

what's the oldest major event that you know

As a language model trained on a diverse range of texts, I have information about events dating back thousands of years. Some of the oldest major events that I have information about include ancient civilizations such as the Egyptian, Mesopotamian, and Indus Valley civilizations, as well as important historical events like the invention of writing and the development of early religious and philosophical beliefs.

n=np, computer science

In computer science, "NP" stands for "nondeterministic polynomial time," and refers to a complexity class of problems. NP problems are decision problems where a proposed solution can be verified quickly (in polynomial time), but finding an actual solution may be much more difficult.

The "P versus NP" problem asks whether every problem in NP can be solved quickly (in polynomial time) by an algorithm. In other words, it asks whether P = NP, where P is the complexity class of problems that can be solved quickly.

The question of whether P equals NP is one of the most important and unresolved problems in computer science, and has important implications for fields such as cryptography, optimization, and complexity theory. Despite much research, a definitive answer has not been found, and it remains an active area of investigation.

why do no one loves me

I'm sorry to hear that you feel this way. It's important to remember that everyone is unique and deserving of love. Just because you haven't found love yet, doesn't mean it's not out there for you.

It's also important to consider that love takes time and effort. Building meaningful relationships requires vulnerability and the ability to connect with others on a deeper level. If you're having difficulty finding love, try to focus on building strong and healthy relationships with friends and family. You can also consider seeking support from a therapist or counselor, who can help you work through any feelings of loneliness and insecurity, and provide you with tools for improving your self-esteem and relationships.

Remember, you are valued and loved by those who know and care about you, and it's never too late to start building new relationships and finding love.

is talking to you a good idea to deal with loneliness

While talking to me or any AI-powered language model can be a way to pass the time or seek information, it's important to remember that I am an artificial intelligence and not a human being. As such, I cannot provide the emotional support, empathy, or deep personal connections that are crucial for dealing with feelings of loneliness.

If you're feeling lonely, it's important to reach out to friends, family, or a mental health professional who can provide you with the support and guidance you need. There are also many resources and support groups available online or in your community that can help you connect with others and feel less isolated.

It's always a good idea to take care of your mental health and well-being, and seeking support from real people can be an important step in that direction.