死獌狗
2017-11-24 23:40:12
Before all the stories begin, Yes, I have put my wedding ring on....... A lot of people will be saying "you don't have to explain yourself, don't feel like you have to do this" etc,I know I don't, but I am and I want to.
It didn't feel right wearing my ring, I see it as a sign of commitment and I was unsure what was happening. I don't always wear my ring day to day, especially when I go the gym which is where I get stalked by paps each morning. So, if I don't always have it on, maybe it's just because am going the gym or haven't put it on before the school run!!
A few people have been feeling sorry for me, please don't. I appreciate getting cared about, however, I am a strong person, I don't feel sorry for myself. Also a few people are probably thinking am stupid for staying in my marriage. I am not stupid, I know my own mind and it's something I want to try and work on.
Before the headlines start.... No, I’m not taking Wayne back as he's never left. Yes, it has been a shit time, and yes, time was spent apart and I thought my marriage might have been at an end.
There’s been so many stories in the press, so many sources chipping in, so called friends having their say and a few well-known names giving their opinion.
Everyone is entitled to their opinion on things, I often do. However please make an opinion based on true facts. I am in the public eye and do expect to get intrusion, however, the amount we have received has been uncalled for. Remember we are people, we have feelings, and as I always say to my children .... don't do or say to others what you wouldn't like done or said to yourself or your loved ones. Also, I really hope the money that people got paid for their say has really benefited both you and your families.
Wayne doesn't get portrayed for the person he is in the press, he has always had a hard time. I’m not going to list his good qualities as a person as I don't think he deserves it at this time but one thing is that he is a brilliant dad. He's made silly and selfish mistakes, some he's learnt from, some obviously not. However maybe that will change?
In life, you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. But one thing I do know is that too much alcohol on a night out is a dangerous and a lot of stupid mistakes are made and things are said under the influence. I would never trust ANYONE who has had a lot of alcohol, it changes some people drastically.
I do have a private life and we are real people which is sometimes overlooked. We do have worries, troubles and obstacles in life we tackle and go through without anyone knowing and we also have fantastic fun times making memories with our loved ones without people knowing. To answer a lot of people, not everything in our life is money related. People think when you earn a lot of money everything is fine, yes there are advantages, but this isn't everything in life and it's doesn't always make people happy. People are everything, and people are what make me the happiest in life. We surround ourselves with friends and family who are genuine, kind and caring people.
It's my decision .... do I love Wayne ... yes I do. If I didn't then I wouldn't be trying to make it work. I know I would be fine on my own, with just me and my children, but I don't want to live like that, I want to try and continue our marriage and live as a family, because that’s what I want to do. I’m not saying everything is fine and forgotten about, but we are as good as can be at this point, I’m not the type of person to put a show on and say we’re all loved-up….I’m just real.
